Manley's Dreamy New EP Touches on Heartbreak, Genuity, and Healing

 

by LEXI MCCOY

Los Angeles indie rock singer-songwriter Manley released their 2nd EP I Picked My Scab and Now There's a Scar in February, and true to its name, it delivers four dreamy tracks that perfectly encapsulate the soft sting of heartbreak, radical genuity and healing old wounds.

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Nat Lee of Manley paints a beautifully, vulnerable, and achingly relatable picture of their experience against the backdrop of music that sounds hopeful and upbeat, giving the entire EP a melancholic feeling that couldn't be achieved without their honesty. Lyrics such as "Babe/Do you like pet names?/How do I be endearing/Without sounding lame?" gives the songs an authentic and utterly human lens - most people can relate to being in love while being completely uncertain about how to show it.

Although the EP touches on somber themes such as losing loved ones and the pains of growing up and moving on, there is a soothing quality to the songs that ensures the listener that through this pain there is beauty and growth to experience. Lee excellently describes the EP as "a confession of genuine ruminations and evocative of a friend crying on your shoulder," and listening through oftentimes feels like the music itself is the supportive and comforting shoulder of a friend to cry on.

We talked to Nat about the lyrics, themes and creation of I Picked My Scab and Now There's a Scar

What was the inspiration for the EP as a whole?

Thank you for taking the time to listen to the EP! I really appreciate it. Overall, the themes that prevail throughout the EP are queerness, social anxiety, relationship trauma, and loss. My own music is one of the few places where I can be the most vulnerable and honest even with myself. In day to day life, I feel anxious about being irrelevant, hard to notice, and hard to hear. In my music, I make my emotions known even louder; my songs are my confessions. I named the project I Picked My Scab and Now There’s a Scar because the topics that these songs touch upon felt like wounds at conception. I particularly write songs when I feel really down in the dumps. After so much time has passed, the wounds have metaphorically healed into scars. I’ve put a lot of effort into recovery, growth, and coping with my struggles. Also, I wanted to poke fun of myself for my eyebrow scar. It seemed very fitting altogether.

As for my sound, my go-to genre of music to listen to is female/nonbinary/queer indie rock. My favorites and top influences are Snail Mail, Soccer Mommy, Clairo, beabadoobee, Phoebe Bridgers, Jay Som, Julien Baker and much more. I also find some emo influences from when I listened to a lot of midwest emo or what some people call “emo revival” like Tigers Jaw, Joyce Manor, The Front Bottoms, etc. I realized that I was listening to way too much white male music. White, cis, straight, male bands are getting old. Queer/BIPOC artists offer such vastly varying, authentic narratives/perspectives and are constantly challenging the existing music frontier. Although those emo bands have a special place in my heart, female and queer artists are who truly inspired me. I found a lot of validation in the range of softness and edge in their voices. I try to emulate that with my own voice in order to channel tenderness and fragility. I challenge myself and others to discover more trans, queer, BIPOC artists across all genres.

I Picked My Scab And Now Theres a Scar Album Art

I Picked My Scab And Now Theres a Scar Album Art

What inspired the song "How to Love Again"?

"How To Love Again" was written to reflect the experience of feeling damaged after a painful relationship. I felt as though my perception of love was not that of healthy love. I was afraid I wouldn't know how to be a good partner in my next relationship. However, this song is one of my favorites because I get to look back on my fears and be proud of my growth. I am currently in a kind, patient, supportive relationship where I am unlearning unhealthy ways to be loved from how I've been hurt in the past.

What inspired the song "Mooncakes"?

This song is especially meaningful to me because it’s about my grandpa who passed away when I was in middle school. He used to be a baker who would make traditional mooncakes for the Mid-Autumn Festival (also known as Moon Festival) for the whole family. Throughout my childhood, I would ask him to teach me his recipe so I could pass it on. Alas, it never happened. The song touches on this and other feelings I had about his passing, like what would it have been like if I came out to him as queer while he was still alive. In the song, I also allude to my grandma who would sit with him in the living room watching Chinese historical dramas and continued to do so for many years later all by herself. My grandpa used to be a constant learner—he was teaching himself English—and was much more tech-savvy than my grandma. I imagined that if he were still around he would help my grandma use the TV remote control, as well as her iPhone and iPad. Unfortunately, my grandma recently passed away at the end of January. Since then, this song holds even more meaning to me. At first it was about feeling the absence of my grandpa, and now, it’s about the absence of both of them. Ultimately, this song is an ode to my childhood, family, and heritage.

What was the recording process like? Was it over quarantine? Did you do it alone or did you have collaborators?

This EP has been in the making over the course of over a year and longer. I started writing some of these songs in late 2019. As an amateur music maker, songwriting comes to me in long phases. I can’t write music unless I’m in a very specific mood and headspace which is usually when I’m remarkably sad. When it comes to recording, I take even longer. Oftentimes, I’m still writing parts of the song while I’m recording. Plus, I’m pretty beginner at using Ableton and mixing/mastering/editing. Prior to COVID, my life and career was in live music; I threw DIY shows, worked at venues and festivals, and was attending shows almost everyday. Obviously. live music and physical events had to take a hiatus. I was a fresh USC graduate with no career prospects on the horizon. With all the free time, I figured it was time to finally be productive with my creative outlet: music. In Spring 2020, I began to hunker down in my garage and lay down the tracks. By September, I finished the recordings, and sent them to be mixed and mastered by my friend Andrew Perrea. The last time I released music was about a year ago. This time around, I’m especially proud of the style and sound that I’ve created. I’ve been listening to songs on this EP in my car as they evolved in the recording and mixing stages. It felt so liberating to finally share what I’ve been working on for so long with everyone!

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What do you have planned for the future for Manley?

As I’ve mentioned, songwriting is a very long process for me. That being said, I do already have some songs written that I want to record. Yet, there are still songs to be written. It seems that my pattern has been releasing music every year. If that is the case, around this time in 2022 could be the next time I have more music to share. If anything, I may put out a couple singles or covers throughout the year. In the near future, I hope to collaborate with friends on music. I also hope to play some online/virtual events until live music returns. One day, I hope to form a live band of other queer musicians to bring my music to life on a stage!


Check out Manley’s latest EP I Picked My Scab And Now There’s A Scar and keep up with us on Instagram for more healing

Words by Lexi McCoy

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